Follow up is tomorrow

My follow up is tomorrow and I just don't know how its going to go. I mean I do in the big picture but I am not looking forward to it emotionally. You never do though I mean really. Follow up to surgery for your baby dying because thats always going to be an appt you want to attend. All I can do is pray and give it to God that he will give me peace and carry us through this time that is still full of turmoil and in the end will bless us with a healthy pregnancy and live baby in the end.