Seven months....

Its been 7 months today that we found out that our baby girl was no longer with us. The time has just gone by so fast and lately I have struggled a lot with her being gone. Overall I do well but I find the further I get along in this pregnancy the harder it is at times. The fear grips me. I do things that are totally irrational to the average person but make perfect sense to me. I came home Friday night before going to a party driving out of my way because I just HAD to listen to her. The last time I was out at a party pregnant was with Hope and everyone was so excited that I was pregnant but she was already gone. I just need the reassurance. I miss the baby we never got to know. I am so grateful for Gabriella, thrilled to have her but just sad at times.